9 Weeks out....

Well I am 9 weeks out and have decided to give myself the day off, before I really kick it into high gear. I am tired and my body is telling me so. Actually it is my feet and shins! LOL!!!!

No it is really just that sometimes you need a break and I need one right now. I probably should wait till next week since I am having lasik and probably wont want to do anything then either.....but today is the day and I will push through next week.

Other than that I have been spot on diet and training, however the weight is not moving...I look leaner, but the scale isnt saying I am! O-well life goes on and the show is still over 2 months away! I have time!

I guess for now that is enough......I never have much to say...not sure why I started a blog anyway...my life is busy, but dull.!

Its Official.........12 Weeks out Today!!!!!!

Well it is time to get cracking!!! Today I am officially 12 weeks out or should I say 3 months out (kind of scares me with the smaller number!), from my first comp of the year! I am feeling really confident! This morning I weighed in at 136.5 and 12.8% BF. I can for sure get down to my goal of 4-5% by May. I have scrubbed the house and all the bad trigger foods are gone. I kept my peanut butter, for those days that I just cant stand it anymore, but it is the good kind.....Naturally more with Flax oil. I love this stuff it is soooooo yummy 169 calories, 10 g of protein, 8 g of carbs, but 4 of them are fiber! So for 1 Tbsp it is 85 cals, 5 g protein, and 4 (or 2 if you subtract the fiber) g of carbs. Not a bad cheat if you have to ease a craving!

Today for me is cardio only. 1/2 hour on the treadmill and another 1/2 hour on the stepper. It will go by quick....then I need to focus on my posing routine. I have had two songs mixed. The first is Decode by Paramore and the second is Supergirl by Saving Jane. I am not sure which I am going to use just yet. I am required to do a 90 second posing routine now so I really need to work on this. 60 seconds seemed like forever now I have to fill another 30 seconds with poses!!! I am sure I will figure it out!

Well breakfast is down the hatch, I guess I better get moving and head to the gym.....cardio don't get done on its own!!!

Injured today! :0(

Well today I was all hyped up and excited because I got my computer back! Been without it now for 3 days and I now realize that I am addicted to my computer and my online community of friends!

My day had a turn for the worse! I was doing my chest workout finished doing decline flys, worked my way over to the smith machine did all 5 sets of flat bench presses and even hit a personal record of 120lbs for six, and then I set up for incline presses, had 70lbs on the bar, lifted it up had no problem for three reps, then number four, and whamoo!!! A massive pain, not sure if it was a tear, a stretch, a bone going in the wrong direction or what but I couldn't move for about 5 minutes. I couldn't even lift my head up! It took everything I had to not ball my eyes out right there in the gym! I managed to get up get changed, and call my chiropractor who got me in as soon as he could. 2:30 came and he advised me that I had torn a ligament on my C7 (whatever exactly that meant), all I know is that he made it sound that the C7 was not a very good place to have out of whack! So I was adjusted and told to ice it for 15 minutes every hour. And to come back on Saturday. I was also told that if it hurts or pulls at all to stop what I am doing and ice it. So I am currently de-railed! It is a good thing I am still over 14 weeks out!

Called Tony to let him know about it too, and he said he was posting a leg workout for me tomorrow so I can rest it, and let the muscles recover!

Okay enough sob story....it is bed time! Till we meet again........

Jan 8, 2009....today has been a really off day!

Not sure why but today has been really off. I have been having really bad headaches and a stiff neck. I only started to feel this way after I returned home from Vegas for a new years mini vacation. I am sure it is just that I am overly tired, but it has really thrown off my day. I am not one to complain, but I hate missing a workout or a meal......crazy I know but it is the honest to god truth!

I am just over 20 weeks out from my first Pro level competition and I am really starting to freak out about it. I know I will be ready, but the idea of actually flying and spending all that money to get to an event is making me focus more on being 100% and coming in, in the best shape I possibly can!

I have added some muscle I know that, and because of the mass, I have added some weight......I know in Bodybuilding adding weight can be good, but it scares me, that it isnt the good solid quality muscle under that fat that I am hoping it to be!

I am probably over analyzing everything but that is part of being a perfectionist....I want perfection! That is why I am so "anal" about my diet and exercise plan. I have to be 100% all the time or I feel I have failed. I do not want to fail...........

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I've found myself in a bit of a slump that past few days/weeks. I am not sure exactly what it is, but I am not feeling happy. I have no reason not to be happy, but I am not...and I am not sure why. Maybe it is just the stress of work, the holiday, and not having my competition body right now. I also had a bit of a set back with some vacation arrangements, but those have since cleared up and eased some of my stress. I probably just need a vacation!!!

My competition season is quickly approaching and I am getting a bit nervous about that also. I dont know if I will be competing in the WNBF or the IFPA organization. It really sucks being a new PRO competitor and then being thrown the loop of changing organizations....especially since I dont fully understand all this in the first place....my first competition ever was in October of 2007, then last year I competed nine times...with the NANBF, it isnt like I ever relaxed enough to learn the in and outs of the organizations....I really feel lost.

I was in control when I knew what was going on and what was expected of me, now I am lost and have no idea of what I need to do.....I am most likely over reacting, because that is just who I am, but I like to have everything planned out and organized...and right now I have no idea when my first competition in 2009 will be....I think that is what is really weighing on me....not knowing.

Okay enough ranting for today....I need to cook some healthy food and get myself back in the game...I know I am competing with PRO's in 09, so I need to train and eat like a PRO!!!! That is something to work with, something I know, something that is in concrete!!!!

Black Friday

OMG, what a long day!!! I missed my workout, but at least I got all my Christmas shopping done!! I did a lot of walking too, so I guess that accounts for something, right? Well I am going to count it.

I expected the shopping to be insane today but it wasnt, thank god!! I got everything on my must have list and then some, but at least I am finished....broke, but finished!

I will be doing my missed workout tomorrow at some point in time...I also have to dig out and put up the Christmas tree and lights.....on top of cleaning the house and doing laundry...O the tasks never end!! O-well I guess it keeps me busy and moving which helps to keep my bodyfat down! LOL!!!

Hope everyone had a fantastic Turkey day....I sure did. I ate way to much!!! So for me it is back to 100% clean eating and workouts on Monday. I am getting fluffy and I dont want to get so fluffy that I need a whole new wardrobe!!!

Okay enough for today, I am beat!!! Have a wonderful night!!