Thursday, January 8, 2009

Jan 8, has been a really off day!

Not sure why but today has been really off. I have been having really bad headaches and a stiff neck. I only started to feel this way after I returned home from Vegas for a new years mini vacation. I am sure it is just that I am overly tired, but it has really thrown off my day. I am not one to complain, but I hate missing a workout or a meal......crazy I know but it is the honest to god truth!

I am just over 20 weeks out from my first Pro level competition and I am really starting to freak out about it. I know I will be ready, but the idea of actually flying and spending all that money to get to an event is making me focus more on being 100% and coming in, in the best shape I possibly can!

I have added some muscle I know that, and because of the mass, I have added some weight......I know in Bodybuilding adding weight can be good, but it scares me, that it isnt the good solid quality muscle under that fat that I am hoping it to be!

I am probably over analyzing everything but that is part of being a perfectionist....I want perfection! That is why I am so "anal" about my diet and exercise plan. I have to be 100% all the time or I feel I have failed. I do not want to fail...........

I would love to have you all check out this link that Tony sent! Thanks!